State of My Mind .. Clinging to a Past

I'm tired, but I can't sleep
standing on the edge of something much too deep
funny how I feel so much but cannot say a word
my past comes in front of me
I am screaming inside, yet can't be heard
so afraid to love you, more afraid to loose
Didnt knew how to convey this feeling, so thought of writing it down.
Maybe one day when u remember what i built for u,
just in case u come back and think of having a view
It will surely remind u what i always said,
U dont know how difficult it is for me, yet i cant confess.
- The day u explained me "how to live without you" ...