Learning the Hard Way

Transforming from feeling love to love as relationship trust plays a major role, when you start enjoying and appreciating the relation so much that you want to preserve it for the rest of your life. You have to accept the person not only with the positives but also accommodate his negatives and help him evolve as a person, learn and understand things, feelings and that is where the importance of trust comes in. I have learned it the hard way, but yes sometimes situations come upfront in so different forms that u could have never anticipated and whatever u learn out of it makes u a very different person. This change is noticeable only when i see it with a difference in the reference point to what i actaully was when i had never walked into this phase of life.

Last Day @ Microworld

Its my last day at Microworld. It seems like yesterday when i joined Microworld but when I actually look back , its been two years since I joined here and best time of my life so far.I don't know how it happened but each day I found myself getting more and more attached to my work. Working here for 2 years was a lot of fun, work, with a mix of emotions and varied feelings all through this time.
It used to give me so much happiness. Working here was a very enriching and rewarding experience. I could not have asked for more. I got to learn so much there including languages like C, C++, giving presentation, preparing documentation, taking design decisions, interacting with clients and what not. I got to have really good and helpful mentor, and a constant motivator. He taught me not to just work but work smartly. He made me understand a very important facet of development that will always be with me throughout my life .. He said ... "Logic is simple . whats most difficult and important is Implementation" as well as his thoughts like "No matter how sure u are ... recheck everything again ... as Big efforts are ruined by Small mistakes"
I met a lot of people here .. I was exposed to so many different ideas, perspectives, thoughts, and of-course cultures. I have made some great friends here whom i think will surely have contacts in future ...
At the time when we (i, bonzi and santu) joined, we were feeling so good about the first job after our college as if studies were such a burden and ahhhhh!!! job gonna give us such a relief from all this study stuff...
Initially we always kept smiling, talking, having long lunch and teatime conversations, chatting with each other, but as the time passed and projects were allocated to us work pressure stated to grow, and of-course the amount of time we whiled away at conversation lessened and finally there was a day when we used to come to office together in morning and then only cud meet each other at lunch and finally while going back home. Things started to turn tougher and tougher and then there was time when i used to stay late nights and go home and just sleep .. wake up next day and come back to office. At times it seemed as if i was not going to a home or something .. it seemed as if i was going to a dharamshala just to sleep, have food and get back the next morning. But after this .. as its said ... "after storm the seas are calm" .... it did happen the same way . my respect and stature in the company grew and so did my experience. More than anything though, I learned a lot!

Well within few hours from now .. i will not be apart of this family but these memories will always remain with me.
I am gonna miss these friends, these days and working in MICROWORLD a lot!!.

“When mistrust comes in, love goes out.”

“To be trusted is a greater compliment than being loved.”
Just a few days back i came across this facet of life which actually shook me from my foundation of thoughts that trust is something that should be the base of any relatioship. Once broken gone foreever and just that moment u dont ever want to go through ever in life. Loosing someone you love just that there was some stupid misunderstanding between both of you.Real trust is very uncommon. The true meaning of trust can only be found when individuals willingly enter a state of mind that will allow trust to blossom or mature. There are many levels of trust and all of these levels can be achieved by creating a euphoric, blissful, non static, barrier free state of mind. This level cannot be forced, it has to be searched out in the mind of each individual and the path has to be taken by the individual alone. Someone who has been there can help with the journey but it is still a journey that must be taken alone. Trust cannot become an entity unto it's own without truth being part of trust. For any relationship to be trustful, truth must be part of it. Part truth will only create part trust. This is where barriers are thrown up to disguise the truth which in turn disguises trust. It seems to be human nature to throw up barriers to the truth. Usually it is the perception that the real truth can be used later for bargaining or to inflict an insult upon another person. Also, secrets are kept back behind barriers in the trust. A secret may keep the individual from getting into a self destructive relationship with the person whom you are shielding the truth from.
A came across this nice poem some days back ... It really tells what i felt .... and what i want to say ...
You hold your breath as I leave the room
I see the worry lines in your brow
I’ve caught you watching me as I sleep
Do you think I’ll disappear somehow?

My love for you is strong,
dependable and true
what will it take to demonstrate
that I’ll always be here for you.

There may be times I must go,
must sometimes leave your side
but I will never leave your
in there my trust will abide.

Darling, I give to you my heart
and fiercely will I ever shout
I love you and hope that I
can heal your wounds of doubt.